This is the Knight of Pentacles from the Paulina Tarot, by Paulina Cassidy.
This card is my 'reality check' card. I've drawn it twice over the past couple of weeks, so it's time to sit up and take notice.
The Knight of Pentacles in an upright position indicates slow and steady progress, new people and experiences, and prosperity in financial matters in general.
As a reversed card, it indicates financial instability, delays, and dire circumstances.
I don't generally read with reverses. I try to utilize both the positive and negative aspects of each card, and allow my intuition to choose the proper meaning according to the situation. This method has never failed me.
I've been trying overly hard to be optimistic for the past few weeks, as we wait patiently for the Visa to arrive. I'm beginning to lose hope of being home for the holidays, and depression is setting in. Our financial situation is not good at this time - both of us are unemployed and jobs are hard to come by, especially when you know that you aren't going to even be in the area for very much longer.
So, I think it's time to allow myself to wander into the darker meanings behind the cards that I draw, instead of trying to maintain the optimism.
The negative aspects of this card today certainly fit our current situation, but we are still achieving slow and steady progress towards our ultimate goal.
I will merge the darkness into the light.